A lesson from Johnny Appleseed

To all the teachers and to those who simply teach others on a daily basis by simply being who they are, I want to share with you a profound aha I had today.

Life has been my teacher. Sometimes I learn from it and sometimes I stand in my stubbornness and deny myself the lesson.

When I do learn something that changes my life in a positive way, I like to share it with others.  

This morning, I was having a conversation with my husband , when I shared with him one of my pearls of wisdom that I had learned in life.  It was a subtle lesson but it really made a huge difference in how I go about manifesting my life.

He listened intently but did not grasp the subtle difference that I was explaining to him. He began arguing with me and I began trying to defend my idea.  I immediately felt very hurt.  It was as if he didn't believe me.  I realized that this was an old wound of mine and one that came up frequently in my life.  So as tears started to roll down my cheeks, I excused myself to go meditate and try to connect to the part of myself that was hurting.  A wiser part of myself knew that I was experiencing a wounded part of myself that needed to come to clarity and heal.  I knew that my husband was not being unkind.  He, just in that moment, didn't agree with what I was saying.

As I connected to my feelings, I could feel deep sadness.  This part of me had been shut down so many times by her parents and told, no this is not the way we think, this is not the way we do things.  

Then I remembered, as a child, I had come to the decision that because my parents were so set in their ideas and their ways, that I would just go to them with my ideas and plant seeds and wait for them to grow.  Sure enough, it worked.  They would often later come to me with the same ideas thinking that they were their own.  I would smile to myself and realize that it was so much easier to plant seeds and let them grow then having to tend to them myself through arguing or trying to teach them over and over. 

In my meditation today the most beautiful downloaded story came to me and I wanted to share it.

" Johnny Appleseed traveled all over the land planting apple seeds.  He did not know if the tree would grow from the seeds that he planted. Some seeds might be planted in infertile ground; some in fertile ground but the wrong climate; some would not receive the nurturing needed to grow; and some seeds would be planted in fertile ground and would be nurtured by the earth, the sun, the rain, and  would grow into a full fruit baring tree.  This was the hope and desire of Johnny every time he planted his seeds. Yet, he planted his seeds everywhere he went and was not attached to the outcome.  He knew that some would grow, some would not, and he trusted that the Universe would take care of the needs of the seeds once they were planted so that they could grow .  He knew that his job was just to plant the seeds wherever he would go and then just let go."

It seems that I took the planting of my pearls too personally.  I have to trust, that if there is fertile ground, the universe will see to it that the seed will grow into a full tree.  I know my husband will come to know and understand what I shared with him this morning.  I let go and let the Universe, God, Spirit, ..... do it's job. And if he never gets it, that's o.k. too.